Wednesday, May 27, 2009,6:37 AM
!!!!!!!!!
WHY THE FUCK AM I SO SCREWED UP??!!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009,7:01 AM
God, i cant believe this is happening to me, man. like seriously? i know im far too outspoken and straight forward for a girl and its this trait that will definitely get me into gang trouble one day, but this had proven too much for me. people around me don't know me, much less i do know myself. first is getting slammed at on other people's msn PM's and then what? getting ostracized? i always think im o-k-a-y with the people i hang out with, but im i really fine with them? for a long time i've been searching or should i say trying to really find a friend in which i can totally pour out what i really think to them without getting 'model answers'. sometimes i really feel as if i don't belng either with this group or the other. sometimes i wish people will just tell me to shut up in my face, but on the other hand, i will ten to feel embarrased. sometimes i wish people will feel afraid of me in 'the' good way, but deep down i know they just cant be bothered to continue the conversation with me. is emo teh real me? is what i am now the real me? i really cannot tell. someone please tell me what i really am straight in my face?